#3 One Year In – Status Update
I've been on the protocol for a little over a year now. A lot has changed during that time. I've healed myself from chronic conditions I used to have, I'm no longer depressed like I was, and I don't deal with anxiety anymore. I'm now living a life that's actually worth living.
Just over a year ago, right before I started the protocol, I was about to get hospitalized in a psych ward—simply because there was nowhere else for me to go in the state I was in. I was in sort of a crisis—mentally, physically, and spiritually.
At that time, I couldn't do anything. I couldn't cook or eat food. I couldn't drive, go to the store, or be around people for more than 30 minutes. I couldn't watch TV or listen to the radio. And I couldn't sleep. Or be a mom. I couldn't even be alone in my own apartment.
Today, I can do all those things.
The healing process turned out to be way more layered and deeper than I thought it would be. It hasn't just been about eating and drinking right, but just as much about uncovering behavior patterns and slowly learning how to change them. One of the biggest things has been learning to actually feel where my boundaries are—and respecting them.
I used to say yes to everything. I didn't even know how to check in with myself before agreeing to things. Silence felt uncomfortable, and being alone felt almost impossible. Rebuilding my ability to tune into my own needs has taken time. It's taken quiet. And alone time.
This is so classic, I guess. I've read this exact story in so many other people's healing journeys. Apparently—I'm no exception.
Alone time is something I never really had before. I've always been in relationships, never leaving any space between partners to just be with myself. And I filled every free moment with plans, social stuff, anything to keep busy. Tove Lo has a song called "Habits" where she sings: "I gotta stay high all the time – can't go home alone again, need someone to numb the pain" — that was me for many years. I just didn't realize it at the time. I didn't know what pain or grief I was running from. I didn't even know there was anything unprocessed. But there was. And it shaped the coping mechanisms I developed as a teenager—strategies I'm now, at 34, slowly unlearning.
Sometimes I still get those little flashes of restlessness. That trapped feeling—like I don't have the same freedom I used to. I want to go out and do EVERYTHING—right now! And then… I can't. Prison! But then comes the art that cats have mastered—embracing the moment, the situation. Even learning to enjoy it. My cat teaches me so much. She's wise. Little cat sage.
My boyfriend says cats are connected to the astral. He also says there are big cats in space—a feline race called the Urmah. My sweet, enigmatic Scorpio boyfriend. And my daughter, too—a deep and lominous soul. She is my number one grounding element, who helps me connect with Now and with Earth. She is so beautiful. And kind. And gentle. And funny and sweet. She is my Queen and my Goddess... 💖
I'm still on my healing path—there's more to be done. But I've gotten a life back through this protocol, and through the gifts I have in my life. I still flush every day. I still drink plasma every day. And I eat animal-based.
The raw meat, like Darko promotes—I'm still struggling with that, unfortunately. If it's served by someone who knows what they're doing, with delicious dressings or sides, I eat it with joy. But so far, I haven't mastered it at home in everyday life.
Also, I've just started using the pulser ( https://www.sota.com/default.aspx?page=Silver-Pulser ) again. The first time I tried it, it was too early—I got too many symptoms, too fast. So I had to hold off. But now, I feel more ready. So we'll see how that goes… in another 6 or 12 months. 😅
If you want, you can follow my healing process on Instagram:
https://www.instagram.com/freyjael/
And if you too want guidance with your healing, I strongly recommend Heidi Opsanger. She's the best. She knows all of Darko's work, and she's also been studying the field of medicine, health, nurturing, salts, and healing for many years. She has incredible knowledge, goes deep into the work, and truly becomes your best friend through the hard times—just as she has been for me. Here is her website:
And here is her facebook support group:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/294627473277397
Darko Velcek's Youtube channel:
https://www.youtube.com/@hilnoretna1/videos
And his blog:
https://darkovelcek.wordpress.com/
I don't like goodbyes, so I'll just let an emoji say the rest:
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